FALSE PRIDE
Lyrics & Music: © Kerstin Dröge, September 2001

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This one started out as an answer to a song that a good friend wrote, it's main point standing
out to me being a lack of self-confidence and strength to manage things. It made me more
than a bit angry. Then I looked at myself -  and my song took a completely different turn.
Fighting isn't ANY better than sitting, you hurt yourself just the same ... Uh oh ... the things
you learn about yourself ...
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The curtains have closed and I step off the stage
I am out of focus now, way out of sight
The things you have told me, they linger in silence
I know, I could speak up but I choose to hide
And all that for something that's just my false pride ...

I've never been shy and I've never been good
At standing and waiting there in the back row
Life had been gentle and given me strength
To step out to the front and let confidence grow
A fighter and leader, now where would I go?

Life never is constant but one constant change
And my so well-groomed world chose to break down and fall
At the end of my tether but so used to arrange
And to deal with, no matter how big or how small
There I bled, but still asked what to learn from it all.

Yes, I learned, but so different from what I expected
I learned that I had to surrender to heal
Noone can stand fighting without ever tumbling
Noone can cut out any hurt and not feel
I took time and I managed, turning the wheel.

There lives a remainder of this spirit within me
I still tend to march to the beat of it's drum
Yes, still I am fighter against my own feelings
And still I go trying not to let too much on
And still I am proud - though I know it might be wrong.